The way I have neglected this journal hurts my brain and my heart and by penis (which only exists on a completely separate plane of existence). Basically, the neglect of this journal makes my penis ache.

I feel like I need to write an entire novel in here to make up for the fact that the last huge post I had in here was almost a year ago. Under no circumstances am I allowed to forget about this journal because I've been keeping it since possibly before high school. That is approximately eight years ago. That is some serious bidnas.

Tumblr is slowly turning into something that I hate because so many people I have on there I know in real life. I would have preferred to keep it locked to Amanda and strangers so that I could be the nerdiest to my highest potential and rant about real life things without running the risk of either that person reading it themselves (because they follow me) or someone reading it and telling them about it.

First world problems, I'm tellin' yeh.

I'll write a long update on my life here when my leg isn't wanting to separate itself from my body and my back is hurting like there is no tomorrow.

oh... hi, LJ.

go back to sleep.

Dear Jessica,

This is you from the past. I'm just writing to let you know - just in case you're feeling nostalgic - that you really enjoyed these three fics (and you should read them again. Just sayin', girl.)

Camerado - Milliejoan
http://www.fanfiction.net/s/5089614/1/Camerado

Problem with Purity - Phoenix.Writing
http://www.fanfiction.net/s/4776976/1/The_Problem_with_Purity

Second Life by lariopefic
http://ashwinder.sycophanthex.com/viewstory.php?sid=17863

So read them again because I know you're feeling all sad and nostalgic... these will cheer you up. Snape is nasty and mean and ugly, and Hermione is fierce and a know-it-all, and insufferably Gryffindor. In-Character just how you like 'em. Seriously. Great fics. I'm gonna tag this post for you so that you can find it and thank me.

Love you, girl. Enjoy. I would say 'you can thank me later', but that's obvious.

Jessum

[4:54:59 PM] Matt Mohorovich: I shall take a sword to your torso.
[4:55:55 PM] Jessica Mendes: I shall poke you with a stick in the same place until your blubbering and insane.
[4:56:43 PM] Jessica Mendes: Pwned,.
[4:56:49 PM] Matt Mohorovich: Your mother.
[4:56:56 PM] Jessica Mendes: wtf bro.
[4:57:05 PM] Jessica Mendes: I high five you.
[4:57:09 PM] Jessica Mendes: You fuckin' blowjob.
[4:57:43 PM] Jessica Mendes: jessica 2, matt 0.
[4:58:07 PM] Matt Mohorovich: I shall lick your nipples til you scream for joy.
[4:58:08 PM] Matt Mohorovich: Wait
[4:58:11 PM] Matt Mohorovich: That's not right...
[4:58:34 PM] Jessica Mendes: YAY!
[4:58:46 PM] Jessica Mendes: I should pwn you more often.

10,000 would do nothing for me, really. I suppose I could afford to move out for a couple of months... I could dye my hair, get my nails done, buy a dog, buy a PS3... pay for school?

the seven dragonballs from DBZ on my foot, and the pendant from escaflowne on my ankle.

done and done.

Yesterday I wrote a post on Tumblr about how excited I was that my bunny finally came right up to me and sniffed my face.. well, I just gave her away to some nice girl named Tania for 100 bucks. My parents forced me to sell her. I'm really sad. What made it even worse was that when I brought the cage downstairs to clean it for the new owners, she hopped right out of the cage and hopped right up to me. She knew I was giving her away. I just pet her and she leaned on my leg. I'm really sad. She was just getting used to me. When they were putting her in the cage, she ran run up to where I was and pressed her face up against the cage, like she was asking me why. I'm so sad. I want her back already. She's worth more than 100 bucks. I miss her. Fuck. Why'd I agree to sell her?

Hey Livejournal. I miss you. I've neglected you for tumblr. Which isn't cool.

My life these past few days I've had a really great time. I haven't seen Matt, but that's really okay. I'm beginning to get used to not seeing him. Not seeing him isn't something that makes me sad anymore. Not seeing him means I get time to me by my self, to work, to work on school, to do all the things that I need to do. These past few days have been awesome. I've stayed up until the early, early hours of the morning watching new series on my lappy tappy and eating junk food.

I've watched 'Secret Diary of a Call Girl' which is now one of my favourite shows, right up there with 'Queer as Folk' and 'Battlestar Galactica'. It's fantastic. All of the actors are amazing, and the show is funny and quirk and sexy and emotional. Billie Piper is beautiful, and the guys that play Ben and Alex are hoooot. The entire show just makes me want to become an escort. Or a dominatrix. Something. Anyway, it's fantastic. I've caught myself up on three seasons. Unfortunately, the next one doesn't premier until January. T.T

I've also caught up on Walking Dead, Modern Family, and I'm beginning to watch Lost, which is also friggin' good. I didn't think I'd like Lost, but I'm enjoying all the characters and episodes. My favourite characters are the pregnant girl, the black family, and the asian lady. They're also great characters.

Working all day, every day, I don't have time to go out, nor the money. But I love coming home and just showering and doing lazy stuff. I have time to work out, pluck my eyebrows, shower, put on the nice smelling lotion, paint my toe nails... Do all the stuff for me that I don't usually have time for. It's just nice. It also helps that I took out a book from Chapters called 'Dune', which is apparently the greatest science fiction book ever written. I have time to read it, I have time to get snuggly and listen to my ipod. I've really been enjoying myself these past few days.

Also, it helps that school is over and I'm working everyday with awesome people. I love working, as much as I whine about customers. All the people there like me for me. There are no complications. We talk about happy stuff and there's no drama or angst. People are always happy to see me. I really enjoy Chapters. I'm gunna miss it when I'm gone next year.

--- OH MY FRIG I LOVE LOST. I'm watching it as I write this. It's just epic. That asian guy is a crazy mofo. He just tackled the cool black guy. DRAMAZ.

Anyway, life is good. I'm relaxed. Mmmmm. Also, love me my money. I'm makin' the maaaaad cheddah.

JM.